I'm back after last last week. ahaaaaaa.
I didn't want my blog to be dead and having spider webs every where cause it's so rotten already..
I'm here to express my inner emotions eventho she can read this but nehh who cares.. :)
Are you happy?
I am pretty much happy and upset in the same time..
I meant like, i'm such a paranoid child. I don't know what to do at times..
it's the same old usual reasons why i'm paranoid.. but currently now only because of one personnn..
but nehh, i shouldn't tell right.. cause it's me being paranoid.. paranoid-ism is not true.. right?
i'm happy.. for now.. :) pretty much..
BAMBIE IS BACK! :D
yessss, my baby poodle that is now so faaaat like an overloaded sausage..
SOOOO CUTE. :D
OHHHH CUTER. :D
and she decided to conquer my whole bed and i don't needa sleep anymore.
OH-OH. I chopped my hair off.
it's so layered now that at times it's like coconut tree.
i'm so ugly you just died.
and yes, why am I paranoid?
I don't know. Don't ask me. Ask my little brains.
It's cray cray. ):
I just don't know why I don't like it when you talk to her. Don't like it at all.
It makes me feel like you'll fall for her again. It's very traumatizing if you were to really fall for her again.
I know you can read this if you enter my blog.
I just don't wanna tell you cause I know you people are just friends and I don't want you to get all upset over me and my little paranoid-ness.
She makes you happy so I shouldn't mind if you talk to her. cause your happiness is all i ever ask for.
I know we aren't as good as your relationship with her but i'm trying to make it a better one for you to remember.
I love you a lot. I have never loved anyone as deep before. I'm serious here.
but I guess it shouldn't be a problem if you talk to her, right?
just don't fall for her. don't flirt with her. don't . just don't .
i don't want to be in controlled even if you like being in controlled but i just feel bad for doing so.
and i don't wanna lose you. knowing that i almost lose you , it's crazy. just crazy .
you mean a whole lot to me. and losing you would make me half dead. maybe three quarters. who knows.
i love you and i'd appreciate everything you do. i'd make sacrifices to just see you happy. anything to not lose you.
You're amazing. very amazing. i feel lucky to have you. you know how to love someone with all your heart. you're very lovable too.
and i tell myself everyday to stop being paranoid to make this work.
but my brain just don't tend to listen.
these few days were okay.. i didn't think much.. i shouldn't.. exactly..
and at times i know you text her.. she calls you or something i don't know..
it makes me feel so unwanted..
i bet you know all these cause i was coffee drunk and blab everything out..
how stooopid of me..
Conclusion ; i don't want you falling for her again cause i'm here.. right here not wanting to lose you..
and I love you..
by the end of this post.. if you read..
don't get all upset and emo okayyy..
i'm just telling you the truth of what i really feel inside..
what's a relationship without trust? :)
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